TIMOTHY WAYNE GIBSON

HE WAS MY OLDEST SON,GREAT SON,FUNNY,PRANKS ON EVERY ONE,GREAT FATHER TO HIS FOUR CHILDREN,I MISS HIM SO MUCH,HE DIED OF CANCER,WHEN I FOUND OUT TIMMY WAYNE WAS SICK,I WAS LIVING WORKING BEING IN ARMY IN WEST HAVEN CT,HE CALLED SAID MOMA I'M SICK,AND THEY TELL ME I HAVE CANCER,MY HEART STOPPED,I I TOLD HIM I'M COMING TO SEE YOU,I ARRIVED THERE SAW HIM IN SO MUCH PAIN AND SO SICK,HE WAS LAYING ON THE COUCH,HE WANTED ME TO SIT WITH HIM ON THE COUCH,I SAT DOWN,HE LAID HIS HEAD IN MY LAP,HE ASK ME TO RUB HIS HEAD,HE LIKE ME RUNNING MY FINGERS THRU HIS HAIR,SAID IT MADE HIS HEAD COOLER,HIS HEAD WAS HOT WITH FEVER,I TOOK COOL CLOTHS TO GET HIS FEVER DOWN,NOTHING WAS WORKING,WE CALLED FOR AN AMBULANCE TOOK HIM ST.FRANCIS HOSPITAL,HE WAS ADMITTED,ALL KINDS OF TEST WERE RUN,THEY SAID HE WAS IN LAST STAGE OF THE CANCER CALLED LEUKEMIA ,WHICH MENT  THERE WAS NO TREATMENT THEY COULD USE TO HELP HIM,HIS WIFE JOANN AND I STAYED AT THE HOSPITAL WITH  HIM,JOANN STAYED EVERY DAY NIGHT WITH TIM,,,,I HAD THE PASTOR DO A PRAYER CLOTH AND I PUT IT ON HIS PILLOW,EVEN AS SICK AS HE WAS HE ,EVERY TIME I GOT NEAR HIS BED HE WOULD GRAB MY HAND AND TELL ME MOMA I FEEL SO BAD,WHEN I HAD TO LEAVE,I TOOK SOME OF HIS BLOOD BACK WITH ME TO CT,I KNEW THE CANCER DEPARTMENT AT THE VA WOULD TELL TELL IF THERE WAS ANY THING THAT COULD BE DONE TO HELP HIM,THEY RAN THE TEST AND THE NEWS WAS THE WORST,THEY SAID HE HAD WEEKS  LEFT,TO LIVE,WHICH PROVED TO BE TRUE,WITH IN WEEKS JOANN CALLED AND SAID HE HAS PASSED AWAY .THEY BURRIED HIM IN A CHURCH GRAVE YARD IN TRAVELREST IN SC I WENT BACK TO CT, AND HIS SISTER TERRI CALLED I HAD TO TELL HER HER BROTHER HAD PASSED AWAY,IT BROKE HER HEART,,I TOLD TOM FIRST TO MAKE SURE SHE WASN'T BY HERSELF WHEN I TOLD HER,SHE DROPPED THE PHONE,I COULD HEAR HER CRYING AS IF HER HEART WAS BROKEN INTO,,I COULDN'T GO TO HIS FUNERAL,THE DAY HE PASSED AWAY I WAS IN SURGERY TO REPAIR MY HANDS AND ARMS,,I WOULD NOT HAVE SURVIVED IF I HAD TO SEE MY SWEET SON LAYING IN A CASKET,MY HEART,MY LIFE WAS BROKEN INTO A MILLION PIECES,,,,I STILL CAN'T VISIT HIS GRAVE,TO ME IT'S ONE THING TO KNOW HE IS DEAD,BUT TO ACTUALLY STAND BESIDE HIS GRAVE AND KNOW MY CHILD IS IN THE GROUND MY HEART AND MIND WON'T GO THERE,HE LEFT BEHIND,A WIFE THAT TRULY LOVED HIM,AND FOUR CHILDREN,,TABITHA,TIMMY WAYNE JR.KIRSTIN AND KYLE,,,,,TABITHA AND KIRSTIN BOTH HAVE CHILDREN NOW SO HE IS A GRANDPA,AND JUST RECENT I BECAME A GREAT GRANDMOTHER NOW,LIFE IS NOT THE SAME,,KNOWING I CAN'T CALL AND TALK TO HIM,TO SEE HIM SMILE,,,HIS SISTER TERRI LYNN HAS PASSED AWAY TO,SHE DIED FROM COMPLICATIONS OF A CAR WRECK,THE DRIVER WAS CRASY,HE WAS DRUNK,SHE SUFFERED SO BAD,FOR SO MANY YEARS BECAUSE OF THIS IDIOT DRIVING THE CAR,SHE WAS SMART,BEAUTIFULL,FULL OF LIFE,SHE HAD TWO CHILDREN HEATHER AND DREW,HEATHER WAS KILLED BY DRUNK DRIVER THAT RAN OVER HER IN HER YARD,,BITTER YES I AM BUT I KNOW THEY ARE STANDING WITH GOD AND THEIR PAIN IS OVER,

i can't believe you are not on this earth any more,only you know how much i miss you,i see you in every thing and everybody,i see a smile and think it's almost like yours,and then my heart hurts,because i can't see your smile,when some one plays a trick on me,i remember all the things you did that made me laugh so hard i cried,now i wish you were here to make me smile some more,i know you're not in pain any more,that no one can hurt you,or scare you,i know GOD IS PROUD TO HAVE YOU STAND WITH HIM,I LOVE YOU,MISS YOU,I KNOW THAT SOON I WILL SEE YOU AND HUG YOU SO TIGHT,

i've been up and down all night trying to find a way to let you rest in peace,,honey,i thought it was  hard on me when you passed away,but now that i have to let go of you so u can be at peace,it's killing me,i need to do this for both of us,,i know you have been worried about me, feeling you near me kept me from from losing my mind,i'm asking  for forgivness for not being the perfect mother,my only excuse is i did what was best for my children,when i couldn't find work,to feed you and your brothers and sisters,some one in my family did,and yes i know you and tinker caught hell at times and i'm asking you to forgive me for letting that happen,but after we got back as a family,we loved,we laughed,we were a home together,i know the military kept me away to much,that was only way i could make good money enough for us to live and eat,you are in my heart ,my soul,and i'm asking you to let go and be at peace,to sing and listen to JESUS and the other angels around you and feel the love that surrounds you,,tell sis that i love her,tell moma and daddy thet things are good in my life that i'm finally finding peace,tell all our family anf friends that i love and miss them,i will still think of you and miss you,i will remember your loving smile your hugs,heaven is a better place for you,because you can be you,you won't be in pain,and you can pull pranks on me and others left here behind,and we will know you are the one that did it and we can laugh with you,,tell GOD i said thank you for taking such good care of you,WHAT EVER TIME I HAVE LEFT ON EARTH,YOU WILL BE WITH ME,AND WHEN I GET TO HEAVEN I'LL SEE YOU AND TINKER AGAIN,UNTIL THEN,KNOW MY LOVE FLOWS DEEP AND FORVER FOR YOU,REST IN PEACE,

TODAY IS YOUR YOUNGEST SONS BIRTHDAY,,HE WAS ONLY THREE MONTHS OLD WHEN YOU PASSED AWAY,KYLE IS A LOT LIKE YOU,,HAPPY,GETS BORED EASY,WHISPER IN HIS EAR TODAY THAT YOU STILL REMEMBER HIM AND YOUR LOVE FOR HIM WILL BE FOR EVER,WE ALL MISS YOU.LOVE MOM

TODAY I STILL GREAVE FOR YOU,AND TODAY INSTEAD OF CRYING BECAUSE I MISS YOU,TODAY I'LL CELIBRATE WHAT YOU LEFT BEHIND TO GET US PAST DEATH,YOU LEFT BEHIND A WIFE AND  FOUR BEAUTIFUL CHILDREN,EACH ONE I LOOK AND LISTEN TO I HEAR YOUR VOICE THRU THEIR ACTIONS,TABITHA,QUIET UNTIL YOU MESS WITH HER FAMILY,,THEN WATCH OUT,,,SHE GAVE YOU TWO BEAUTIFUL GRAND CHILDREN,AND I SEE YOU IN THEIR FACES AND EYES,YOUR NAMESAKE TIMMY WAYNE JR,IT'S LIKE LOOKING AT YOU WHEN I SEE HIS PICTURES,AND KIRSTEN IS YOUR SPITFIRE DAUGHTER.DON'T HOLD BACK ON WORDS OR ACTIONS,,,JUST LIKE YOU....AND KYLE....LOOKS JUST LIKE YOU WHEN YOU WERE YOUNGER,AND AGAIN I WATCH HIS WRITING ON HIS PAGE AND I HEAR YOUR VOICE.YOU PASSED ON GREAT QUALITIES IN YOUR GENES TO YOUR CHILDREN.FAMILY FIRST.LOVE,LOYALTY,LAUGHTER.KEEP WATCHING OVER YOUR CHILDREN,THEY STILL NEED YOU.YOUR SISTER DIANNA FOUND SOME OLD PICTURE OF YOU AND SHARED THEM WITH US,I HAVE ADDED THEM TO YOUR PAGE,,TELL TINKER TO GIVE YOU A HUG FOR ALL OF US.AND GIVE HER A TIGHT HUG FOR ME.TELL YOUR GRAND MA AND PAPA HALL THAT WE MISS THEM STILL.