So near and yet,so far.

I FOUND GRETHE TODAY,HER NATURALIZATION PAPERS SHOWED #6919365,POSITION-480657,ISSUED NOV,13 1951.I HAVE NEVER FOUND THAT MY MOM LIED TO ME THOSE LAST FEW MONTHS BEFORE SHE DIED.THOSEWERE THE ONLY TIMES WE HAD ,ID ONLY JUST MET HER OCT 1980.IT TOOK ONLY 7 DAYS TO FIND HER,AFTER AN ADOPTION 30 YEARS EARLIER.FATE--OH YEAH,I TOLD MY PRIVATE GENEALOGIST,IT HAS TO BE RIGHT NOW,SHE HAS NOT LONG TO LIVE,,,,,SHE DIED 11 MONTHS LATER.THAT WAS OCT,1981.IT HAS INDEED TAKEN ME 27 YEARS TO GET BACK TO IT.MY NAME IS RICK, IWOULD HAVE BEEN ERIC ROWE,INSTEAD I BECAME A LIEBERMAN, STRANGER IN A STRANGE LAND..IALWAYS NEW I WAS NOT LIKE THE OTHER JEWISH KIDS , DIDNT THINK LIKE THEM , NOR LOOK LIKE THEM,NOR FEEL THE SAME,PERCIEVE AND BELIEVE THE SAME..BECAUSE I WAS NOT. I WAS DIFFERENT,IT MEANT EVERYTHING TO ME.YOU KNOW ,IT SEEMS FUNNY WHEN I LOOK BACK ON IT,I JUST NEVER FIT IN.WHEN I FOUND MY MOM IN LATE OCT 1980,IT HAD ONLY TAKEN 8 DAYS, EIGHT DAYS AFTER 30 YEARS OF SEPERATION,BY ADOPTION. WHO WOULD HAVE THUNK IT ,8 DAYS. WELL TO MAKE A LONG STORY SHORT...HERE IS HOW IT WENT DOWN...                                                                              IN 1980 I WAS A REP,WORKING THE SIX STATE NEW ENGLAND TERRITORY.ONE AFTERNOON,WHILE WATCHING TV,IT HIT ME ... FIND MOM NOW OR IT WILL BE TOO LATE...LIKE A TELEGRAPH WIRE .RIGHT THROUGH MY HEAD..MESSAGE ENDING IN IMPORTANT.HOW IS THAT FOR AN EXPLAINATION. I MEAN ,IDO HAVE MY THEORIES BUT AS FOR THE EXPERIENCE IT WAS JUST THAT SUDDEN AND DIRECT.I HAVE HAD THESE EXPERIENCES ALL MY LIFE, I GUESS IM JUST COOL WITH IT,IT JUST HAPPENS.I LIKE TO CALL IT MY MESSAGE FROM THE ANGELS.I WAS ALSO IN THE PROCESS OF A DIVORSE, AND I HAD EVERY REASON TO REACH OUT TO MY INNER PASSIONS.WITH ONE CALL,I CONTACTED A GENEALOGIST, WHO ARRANGED TO GET A COPY OF MY ORIGINAL BIRTH CERT,WHICH WOULD PROVIDE THE BIRTH MOTHERS MARRIED AND MAIDEN NAMES, AND THE FATHERS IF ENTERED.THAT TOOK 1 DAY AND WITH ONE CALL TO AN AREA NEAR MY MOMS HOME TOWN LOOKING FOR PEOPLE WITH HER MAIDEN NAME ,WE FOUND AGNES THOMSEN.WELL, WITH BREATH IN HAND AND MIND ON MAX STRESS,I CALLED HER.THE JEST...I ASKED IF SHE KNEW A GRETE IDA THOMSEN, MARRIED NAME ONCE OR MAYBE STILL ROWE,EVEN THOUGH ,I KNEW ,SHE WAS REMARRIED.SHE IMMEDIATELY ANSWERED, YES I KNOW HER THAT IS MY DAUGHTER. DO YOU KNOW HOW TO GET IN TOUCH WITH HER,{,i asked out of breath,} YES SHE REPLIED.WELL, SAID I , ...  HOW WOULD I DO THAT..SHE SAID SHE LIVES ACROSS THE STREET ILL TELL HER.IN 8 DAYS FROM START TO FINISH..I WAS DRIVING MY MUSTANG UP THE DRIVE WAY ON  COLUMBO ST AND I SPOTTED MY BIRTH MOM PACEING BACK AND FORTH BY THE WINDOWS . THIS WAS THE BEGINNING OF THE END ALTHOUGH IWAS NOT QUITE CERTAIN OF IT AT THE TIME.WE HAD ONE THANKS GIVING ,ONE CHRISMAS AND SEVERAL WEEKENDS TOGETHER BEFORE SHE DIED THE FOLLOWING OCT.IT LEFT ME IN A  FOG FOR 20 YEARS,BUT I WILL NEVER ,NEVER REGRET FINDING MY MOM,SHE LOVED ME AND I LOVED HER, STILL DO. ALWAYS WILL.